Teringin mau memaki

Terkadang dalam menjalani hidup ini, ada satu saat yg kamu terasa amat amat diperlakukan dgn sgt sgt salah.
Tp aku harus mengingatkan diri, aku ini org yg decent, soft spoken, sabar, dan sopan
Jangan memaki, walau keinginan itu tinggi

Moga

Moga didekatkan yang jauh,dirapatkan yang renggang, dihuraikan yang kusut, ditenangkan yang serabut, dipermudahkan yang susah, dijernihkan yang keruh, dimaniskan yang pahit, disihatkan yang sakit

Moga...:)

Kesihatan, Doktor kata aku Low Blood Pressure, agak lemah utk 2-3 hari ni, kena makan byk dan yg sihat, serta tak boleh stress

Maka agak kuranglah tawa dan perbualan ku dgn rakan rakan kebelakangan ini, moga mereka tidak tersinggung

Moga pulih seperti biasa


p/s: entri yg kt bawah ni bertujuan utk menang tiket ke legoland, kalah kot? huhuhu...:(

Maybank-Legoland Bloggers Contest

Why Maybank should give me tickets to Legoland

As a Mathematics lecturer, teaching in an a-level college, i lead life full with figures and calculation, graph and diagram, theorem and formulas, lemma and corollary, also i got surrounded by a lot of formulas, all yearned to be proved and verified, i owe my students lengthy explanation about calculus and statistic, algebra and sometimes even simple arithmetic needed to be re-explain over and over.

My work starts at 8am and ends at 5pm, for which the 8 hours period always seems so short and insufficient. Too much consultation and extra classes needed to be given special care and attention to catch up with the fast syllabus. The situation worsen as some of students are unable to keep track with the learning, they are having difficulties to comprehend the content of Mathematics.

One day in lecture

It was one serene Monday, 8 am, all the students enter the lecture halls wearing the 'monday blues' look. Slowly and with hesitation taking their places scattered and at random. The lecture halls can occupy approximately 200 students, but there was only 140 of them. There was plenty of empty seats here and there. They tend to sit in group base on clique or friends they feel most comfortable to be with. Girls will sit among them and boys, as usual fancy seats at the back, sitting together with the other boys.

The class fell silent as i start to switch on my laptop and preparing my teaching aids. I can sense the mood of the crowd getting even gloomier when i display the difficult theorem to be proved, continuation from yesterday. As always, i will ask if any of them already able to prove the theorem, none of them raise up their hand. One or two boys at the back look as if they are actually coming to class sleepwalking, the actual person still sleep soundly on bed, only the body involuntarily coming to class.

The class was a passive as it could possibly be, i was thinking something should be done turn the atmosphere to become more jovial and enjoyable to promote better learning.

Promptly, i gave instruction:

All stand up!

Then i played a video featuring cartoon dancing merrily along with a happy song to cheer them up. They crowd started to look alive.

Then i said, okay i you want to, you can sing along! Then i played world current no 1 hit, 'Oppa Gangnam Style'



The class continued 10 minutes later

After class, some of the students came and see me, claiming the class today was so different compared to previous. They complaining i was too serious and stressful while teaching. They can't adapt with my teaching style. They demanded for me to change and try to understand teenagers. They like Mathematics, but they need a better environment to study it.

Our chat brought us to a topic of a new sensation in the country, newly built Legoland, a sophisticated theme park suited for people from all walks of age.

They hinting of wanting to hang out with me there. I decided a good teacher should be the one who can build good rapport with the students.
Maybe hanging out with them at the Legoland Themepark is a good jump start towards a better teacher-students relationship!.

Aktiviti saya hari ini

Its been so long since i last updated anything in diary or journal fashion
When i first blog, all i wrote about was how my day started ( the moment i wake up) to the time it ended (the moment when i went to bed)
Lately, my blog seems so dull and i am becoming more mature which is equal to being secretive
Perhaps i'd finally learnt and recognize the boundary of sharing
The principle of sharing in my opinion is, you display what is of mutual interest of the majority
Your kind of story like what you eat or went that day perhaps only catch fancy of 2 or 3 people
And that 2 or 3 people can be informed via text,BBM or whatsapp

*note: i never use BBM and whatsapp, i dont even know how it looks like

But today i am feeling particularly generous to share my life's detail, for today:
*Note: Inappropriate activities such as my activities in toilet etc wont be divulge..haha

Today 17th of September 2012, i woke up at 6.00, performing my Subuh Prayer, then switch on my laptop, i log in to my facebook account 'Nadiah Che Rahim', replying comments about last nite status, liking a few status-es, like a few photos, sharing a few infos

The i logged out of my FB, get back on the bed, first sitting in a natural position, then lying
Then i stare at the ceiling fan, obviously daydreaming
i slowly drifted back to sleep, then when i finally woke up its 8.30, hungry
Hastily went to the sink, to wash my face and brush my teeth, not showering though
I got out of bed, walking lazily and slowly to the kitchen, opening the fridge, grab a few raya cookies still remaining
Went to the living room, open out all the windows for some fresh air
Then decided that morning i wanted to cook something
I've been craving for 'ketupat sotong'
Then i remembered, i do not have the required ingredient which is the pandan leaves
Grab my car keys, rushing downstairs, put my key to iginition, drove to the P4, located near to the Director's residential, bringing together a knife.
I cut off two slices of pandan leaves, enough
Went back home,take a shower
Then went to d kitchen, getting all the squid i cleaned last night out of the fridge ans started inserting glutinous rice into those squids.
Then i submerged all those squids into coconut milk, adding some salt and huge bulk of gula melaka, diulangi HUGEEE BULK OF GUULAAA MELAKAAA

and tadaaaaa

Siap pun ketupat sotong!

Sebab buat sendiri, memang cukup menepati selera lah, iaitu, mesti MANIS
Sebuku kot gula Melaka tu masuk dlm tu, sbb Tangkak dkt dgn Melaka kan, gula Melaka mudah dpt
Hambikk, byk giler letak

Sedapp, maniss...*kalau org yg bukan Kelantanese makan berpinar lah mata..haha

*ok malas dh nk taip,  lagipun dh lupa dh buat ape ntah harini...:p
*ooo, maybe ptg tu ada main badminton sikit

Azam

Setiap pagi aku bangun dengan azam seperti berikut:

#Mau solat wajib di awal waktu

#Mau bangun solat malm

#mau baca Al-Quran sekurang kurang 1 muka sehari

#Mau berpakaian menutup aurat dengan lebih sempurna

#Mau lebih rajin mentelaah pelajaran

#Mau kurangkan makan nasik (haha)

Tapi hari hari yang berlalu, masih tidak tertunaikan, moga aku masih hidup esok hari...

Jiwa

Perasaan yang hebat membara, tapi tersimpan cuma, akhirnya pudar dan tawar dengan sendiri, setelah lelah menanti dan menahan diri, hati diikat kemas kemas seakan dipunyai, akhirnya hambar kini~

MIdnight in Malaya

I really like this song, the rhythm is similar to sudirman song, "Indahnya Alam"
i think its melody is very touching

Ok, Bulan puasa~

Salam Ramadhan

Less is more

Teman, ku lebih menyukai kamu dalam keadaan serba kekurangan dan ketidakcukupan

Kerana kesusahan kamu membuka ruang dan peluang untuk aku membantu

dengan itu terjalin lah satu perhubungan yang berdasarkan kasih sayang dan keikhlasan

Teman aku menyukai kamu dalam keadaan kamu tidak punya apa-apa

Kerna waktu itu kau punya banyak waktu untuk berkongsi cerita

Dan banyak benar yang perlu kau luahkan kerana hidupmu yg banyak duka

kerana dalam kekurangan dan kesusahan itu, aku tak mungkin kau akan lupa

Teman, di saat kau punya segala gala

aku rasa makin jauh....

W&S

Perjalanan pergi UPM every weekend, dari Tangkak:

(darab 2)

minyak: RM30 

Tol: Rm 18.40 (jika exit Kajang utk pergi rumah Kak Long+RM1.00 utk tol sg Balak) atau 18.70 (jika exit UPM)

Penginapan: Free of charge (tidur rumah Kak Long di Kajang)

Makan: cuma sometimes lunch dgn kawan2 di UPM, mostly free of charge (Kak Long masak)

Kelajuan: 120km/h (ocassionally), average cuma 100km/h (try to maintain or reduce speed)

Teman: Ikha, pensyarah MMU Mallaca, ambil dia biasanya di Tol ayer Keroh dan pegi UPM together-gather & rakan sejawat Miss Oh

Duration: 1 year and half lagi (err kalau lulus la dan boleh meneruskan pengajian)

Content: Mathematic dan Statistic yg agak sakit kepala

Work and study?

I prefer work

note: Kak Long inspire me a big deal, she's a doctor, married with 4 kids, but manange to finish her master to become specialist, she, of all the hardships CAN, i CAN too..=)

Self reward

Nk hadiah kan sesuatu utk diri sendiri sempena habis semester 1 pengajian master (baru habis satu sem, tu pun asik nk berenti je)..my first few choices were:

1.ipad
2.Tab
3.Samsung S3
4.Handbag (nk yg harga lebih sedikit dr yg biasa beli)
5.PS3/Xbox/PSP

Sebagai insan yg berbelanja berhemah (sbb duit tak banyak sgt...haha), byk pertimbangan perlu dilakukan sebelum membeli sesuatu,

Finally, i decided to buy myself


A TV (Toshiba LCD, 32 inch)

Murah je kot, x sampai seribu (RM900++)
dpt dgn lebih murah sbb me and my friends pegi sama2
My friends bought huge refrigerator+TV LED 40 inch+aircond
So beli brg byk, kami bargain harga lebih sikit
(sekali lagi, perbelajaan berhemah sbb duit x byk)

 a lot less money compared to purchasing ipad or Tab

Masalah nya, TV yg dibeli tu seakan x ada fungsi, siap dh ditutup dgn kain, hari2 berlalu ia cuma direnungi (tanpa suis terpasang)

Ia, secara literalnya aku lihat sahaja TV tersebut, tanpa hidupkan nya (tidak menonton)

sememangnya kurang berminat menonton TV

Considering utk subscribe to Astro for  few days later kot, maybe akan lebih berminat utk menonton TV

Silap2 ia akan dihantar balik kg je, hadiahkan pd Ma dan Abah..

Blogging: a forgotten hobby

That's why it is no longer popular

All i wanted to express actually, already completely written in the title

Thats why facebook is so popular, you are allowed to write a single simple sentence, to tell the whole story

Compared to composing lengthy essay on blog, so leceh lah

;p

Motorcycle

Kamen Rider Black has two motorcycle, Battle Hopper and Road Sector. But Kotaro Minami has another motorcyle ( i dont know what it is called)

Since i was a kid, i always fantasized about riding one of the motorcycle, my dream and my favourite always will be

ROAD SECTOR...i want it want it want it want it want it want it want it!!!

*note: bawak motor pun tak tau, lesen pun xder

                                                                        Road Sector

Motorcycle Kotaro Minami

                                                                           Battle Hopper



Pergh, nak 1, nak 1 nak 1, nak 1, nak 1 nak 1

~Tak sangka perangai mcm ni lg walaupun pengajian dh sampai master...kahkahkah

Sigh...

I am way too grown up to give up a struggle on trivial  matters

sod ba ro

Advance

Mak tepon, katanya "baju raya dh ada, jgn pandai2 beli sendiri"

Dari kecik sampai aku dh keje umur 26, baju raya aku masih lg di bawah kekuasaan my mother
Ma mmg jarang percaya dgn pilihan aku, and i always agree with her choice

Tp, ma mmg advance lah, puasa pun belum,
puasa ganti pun belum habis

hahaha

Family Potrait

i dint have much knowledge about photography, but i do know it captures not just image, but moment when it was taken.

It might not be genuine, most people will smile when the camera was directed to them, masking the real emotion and feeling.

And i believe, the person who has the strongest 'chemistry' with you, is the person you feel most comfortable to be in the picture with, along with the thought 'i care not how i look', because when you're here, nothing matters.


This theory might not apply to everyone, but for me, yes, it is.

A good picture displays honesty, no fake posing, or an attempt to look cute, no false act or deliberate display of good looks.

Genuine.

And if i can vote, gambar terbaik bukan gambar yg menerima 'like' berjuta (jika ia dimuat naik ke FB), yg memaparkan kecantikan/kacak seorang manusia.

And i think, i really like photos of family, any family.

Sangat menyukai foto seorang kawan, dlm byk2 gambar, i like this one the most
apa yg dipaparkan?

Cuma gambar dia dan keluarga yg baru dia bina, bertiga, dia, suaminya dan anak nya, gambar dia (bertudung labuh)+suaminya (baju biasa berkopiah)+anaknya tersenyum...

BIASA in all respect

Lebih cantik dari gambar fancy couple pergi all those fancy and expensive places....

Menyukai yg biasa

Okay sekian sessi komentar gambar org..haha

Not a lot of things

I'm about to ramble, a lengthy one,

But attempting to put it into writing, it all suddenly gone, disappear into thin air

Vanished ( ini bukan merujuk kpd jenama cecair penghapus kotoran pd pakaian..;p)

Not a natural writer i guess, not a skilled mathematician, not a talented musician, not a lovable lecturer, not having ways with people, not great at art, not capable of retaining interest, not a-lot-of-things

Maybe thats why......

I dont have the slightest comprehension regarding social behaviour, more than what can be observed and perceived by the naked eye.

To my exclusive point of view, i fathom the social set to be the description of groups, used to classify people in your life base on certain shared traits and mutual characteristics. These sets arent mutually exclusive and possibbly overlapping one another.

People in my life boleh diklasifikasikan seperti di bawah:

1. Every weekdays i mix and mingle with my colleague, they are one group of very mathematically inclined people with very intense sense of humour. Comes from all walks of society background and the age ranging from 25-52, this is the diversed group united by one aim:

WE WANT AS MANY 'A' STUDENTS IN MATHS AS POSSIBLE EACH SEMESTER, OR ITS HEADACHE!..:)

2. Every weekend i met my classmates from the Master of Applied Statistics i am currently taking in UPM, most of them are in the same situation as mine, working+studying, many of them are even married with kids, toddler, infant, we all had hard time juggling between studying+assignment+job+family (for the married case).
But some of them are full time students with no other commitment but studying ( i envy them!)
These are another coolest people with rather severe obsession to Mathematics and Statistic, equipped with really entertaining sense of humor..;)

3. Once in a blue moon, i'll visit my juniors when they participate in the debate tournament in any universities nearby, i will met the ex debaters. This groups are my past, many people in it no longer give any significant meaning in my life except for the updates i read about them on facebook, or occasion accidental stumble over elsewhere.
But my ex teammates from KDBM Upsi remains my best friend, i think for life..eg: Siti Habibah, Halimatul Saadiah..i love them..:)

4. My ex school mate, my childhood friend, we met again mainly thru facebook and started to re kindle the long lost communication. Originating from the same background we have no problem to re ignite the long absence warmth and closeness which was once there. we even met during Hari Raya.

Forget me not

Clock ticking , night getting older, a few moment has passed for today to be considered ended, a new day has begun

Still packing a few things, will travel back to Kajang tomorrow, classes as usual in UPM on weekend, a weekend routine i have come to get used to.

Attending lectures on weekend makes me miss out many of my friends activities, sometimes, i felt like robot, not real, programmed, and controlled. Worst, i felt forgotten.

These are sacrifice, and its deemed as one sacrifice i am most willing to make

I love studying...^_^

...................

Perpisahan

Dia pergi, meninggalkan ruang kosong dalam rutin hidupku, dan hatiku.

Bukan perpisahan yang kekal abadi, tetapi lebih kepada suatu perubahan yang amat meninggalkan kesan di hati, tuhan sahajala yang mengerti.

Ucapan terima kasih dan selamat tinggal, sangat sangat memilukan, penafian kepada pertanyaan samada ku bersedih atau tidak.

Menangis, cukup sekadar di dalam hati, jika ada yg memerhati


Are u sad?

Sad is an understatement, i felt as if my world is falling apart

Classesssssssssssssssssssssssss

Setelah sekian lama permohonan melanjutkan pengajian diluluskan, defer punye defer, semangat sekejap ada sekejap tiada, malas jgn cerita, akhirnya, i decided to risk it all and pursue my study in Master of Applied Statistic, UPM.

Background undergrad dlm Maths Education, bukan nya truly and purely Statistic adalah satu cabaran yang agak mencabar kesabaran untuk selongkar semula semua buku berkaitan Statistic yg pernah dihadap suatu ketika dahulu, dan baca semula content yang ingat ingat lupa

Luckily, mengajar Maths peringkat pre-u memberi kemahiran untuk manipulasi algebra dan teknik2 kalkulus, walaupun pengetahuan statistic ku agak terbatas, tp kemahiran dlm basic calculus membantu utk memahamkan derivation derivation dan proof proof yg merupakan asas kot, dlm course ini

So far, i manage to understand everything taught in lecture, tp x tau lah bila course sudah proceed dalam masa 2-3 bulan and next, will i still be able to catch up?

I still am, teaching

A masters degree is something me myself (and my parents) really wanted me to have, and i am determined to fulfill it.

*Dan moga ada lagi perkhabaran2 baik along the way...amin..:)

Sempurna

Just how much i always wanted to be liked for who i really am
That's just how much i always loved everybody else for who they really are
I never really looked at people like they looked at themselves in the mirror
Kindness always equals to beautiful
And the otherwise is just opposite to beautiful
Who dares to deny the great god's skill of creating
Every and each of HIS creation are great
You just have to see more than how you always see
Instead of seeing with eyes, try to see with heart

If everyone's just try to be less judgmental
If only everyone can be so generous to accept flaw
World will  be a better place to live

~NNCR (5.48 pm)

Selalu ada masalah utk cari idea utk tulis tajuk selepas tulis sesuatu entri

When i was young, i never needed anyone
I never feel the need to be known
praised nor appeased
Neither was i felt the need to be respected
nor was i felt the need to be recognized
and approved
of every single deed
All by myself
I'm fine
All by myself
I'm content
All by myself
I'm felt suffice
Maybe all this growing up
has altered either
me
or
my surrounding
or both, and now
all by myself
dont wanna be
all by myself
dont wanna be
anymore~

What am i after
Fear creeping over
I lives with insecurity
I lives with greed
which i proudly claim as ambition
What had i became?
Really~

Lyrics: Ku mahu kau tahu

Di sudut termenung jauh
Mengenangkan nasib kita
Kita miliki separuh
Berbentuk hati cinta namanya

(Chorus)
Walau kau jauh
Ku sentiasa menunggumu
Inginku imbas kembali memori
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/h/hujan/ku_mahu_kau_tahu.html ]
Walau kau jauh
Ku berjanji kan terus tunggu
Dipisah lautan biru

Ku mahu kau tahu
Aku kan terus menunggu

Jangan pernah sekali kau buang
Seperti cinta ini yang terbuku
Akan bersemi jua

(Chorus)

Terus menunggu
Kita kan bersatu
Terus menunggu
Ku mahu kau tahu

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/h/hujan/#share