All is good

I havent been writing much of late. I am imprisoned in between the burden of never-ending works and commitment and also my own inner reluctance to share my life with others.

Life has been truly good to me for this past 3 years, my career started to climbing to the peak, i finished my master in Mathematics Engineering and all else is better than good, great. Some people come into my life and make it wonderful, they are truly godsend.

I finished two English novels and one Malay novel after completing my viva for mas master degree last week, regarding my research entitle 'Groundwater flow and the effect of advection diffusion equation'. Now i can truly and fully focus on the journey of my career and struggle harder to produce more 'A' students to accomodate the country development and growth.

Hoping to see Korea this upcoming November. Once again will be on the tight budget journey with friends and enjoying the last bit of solo life.

That's all i can write about nowadays, my life no longer out of ordinary since i left DEBAT, but it has been extraordinarily great and good.

Alhamdulillah, Syukur Ya Allah

Ramadan Kareem

~Nadiah Che Rahim

Couch

Today, i sat on a couch, staring emptily at the television, without turning it on first. It went on for about half and hour, then tears slowly running down my cheeks.

My body started shaking from the uncontrollable sobbing, it is making me tired, so i lie down, on the couch. Clearly the couch cannot accommodate my height, i was in a curling position for about two hours. The first hour i lie sideways facing the television, for another hour, i just staring blankly at the rotating blades of the fan.

I got so much to mourn, i got so much to get upset over, wasting my time on a couch seems like the only remedy to cure my worn out heart.

I am tired. tired of waiting, tired of all the excuses, tired over shamelessly enjoying other's happiness, without any prospect of getting mine.

I wasn't really sleeping, sleeping is a luxury i cannot afford now.

The clock is ticking, my life is wasted by every second passed.

I just wanna stay in this couch