bagaimana?

When i was at school, my teacher always encourages me to ask 'how' question instead of 'why' question. I asked 'how does the photosynthesis process occur?',' how to integrate this-and-that-kind of functions?', 'how to sew these two pieces of clothes?', 'how to....' bla..bla

How?

So today, i'd like to ask how do we live? Or, the exact question is how do we live, happy?

The answer provided right around you. Its the outright facts from the start that all unhappiness stem from desire, or to be more exact, desire which can't be satisfied under your very limited capacity, and we always desire things we cannot achieve.

That way you suffer.

Try to learn to find happiness in the simplest good thing you encounter everyday, even the trivial fortunate good consequences from the daily ordinary good deeds, or simply well organized routine, or you can easily be happy merely by thinking about being happy.

Happiness is a 'potion', it can be 'brewed' with the right ingredients in correct portion. It can be created, shared and preserved.

Example:

Aku bangun pagi untuk pergi kerja, memandang kereta kelisa-ku, aku gembira, bila cuba hidupkan enjin, ia segera beri kerjasama tanpa masalah, aku gembira, masuk pejabat, lihat mejaku, kerusiku, PC-ku ada pada tempatnya, aku gembira, kemudian duduk, pelajarku datang bertanyakan soalan, dan aku dapat bantu mereka, aku gembira, tiba waktu tengahari, makan, aku gembira...

Susah ke nak happy tuan-tuan dan puan-puan sekalian?



p/s: Sejujurnya sewaktu mengarang entri ini, ketika ia hampir ke penghujungnya, aku rasa agak senget sikit, gila ke? mana ada org gembira byk-byk sgt kan dlm satu hari??

Manusia zaman moden ini byk bersedih dan kecewa shj? betul kan?

Siapa?

When your life is threatening to push you down to the deepest and darkest area you fear all your life, what are you suppose to do? run away? commit suicide? pray? or simply and calm yourself down? or perhaps you'll start blaming everyone and everything including your neighbour for not turning down the stereo volume, pained your head with the throbbing sound, causing you insomnia for so many nights now, and your neighbours kids, for screaming and crying like their head been cut off, adding the severity to your already very severe headache, or, would you blame the postmen, for delivering the debt payment notice, reminding you what you owe, and how little you owning.

Who to blame? who wants to take the blame?

Who?
Who?

Begin-working-waiting

Whatever you did in life always started at zero, progressing to something huge and great; if you put suffice effort on it! Time taken for the progress will vary, the longer it takes for you to reach your objective, the harder your patience be tested, vice versa.

But, the most difficult stage is not about waiting for the result, the hardest chapter in the whole story is about how? where? when? to START? what? to begin with?

The beginning is the crucial stage which determine where the whole thing is leading. Sometimes the tiny sparks ignites at the very beginning will cease to turn into inferno, because the starting point is already very lame.

Hujan turun sangat lebat...

1. Sepanjang aku berada Tangkak ini, tidak banyak hari hujan yang aku ingat, cuma beberapa hari yg lalu, ketika makan di sebuah restoran paling ekslusif di Tangkak ini ( haha), hujan telah turun dengan sangat lebat, disertai dengan bunyi bising yg sarat memenuhi setiap ruang dalam otakku, hasil dari hentakan kasar titisan hujan pada atap zink.

2.Aku suka menulis bila hari hujan, dan ya, aku akan tulis tentang hujan, kerna hujan adalah suatu subjek alam semulajadi yang aku rasa luas julat pentafsirannya; ia boleh jadi bala pada nelayan dan penoreh getah, jadi satu rahmat pada petani yang mahu tumbuh-tumbuhannya subur, terlalu banyak alamatnya celaka, tiada maka kontanglah dunia.

*apa-apa pun kita cuma wajib bersyukur*

3. Aku tamat pengajian pada bulan April, konvo pada bulan Ogos, dan menunggu posting dari Ogos hinggalah Disember. Sepanjang musim tengkujuh tahun 2009 aku habiskan menulis blog yg disepahkan dengan entri-entri berkenaan hujan. ( blog lama, http://cikgunadiah.blogspot.com/ sudah di-privatekan!)

4.Setiap kali turunnya hujan, aku akan tulis sesuatu mengenainya, dalam Bahasa Inggeris dan Bahasa Melayu. Mungkin sebab aku dilahirkan pada suatu hari yang hujan sangat lebat pada bulan Disember 1986, maka aku membesar jadi seorang manusia senget yg suka hujan (haha).

Ya, menurut kajian seorang pakar psikologi, jika kamu lahir si musim tengkujuh, maka kamu akan dewasa menjadi seorang manusia pemikir yang amat kurang kata-kata dan cuma lebih reaktif di kala hujan turun.

*kajian tu tipu* (haha)

5.Hujan membawa kenangan ketika bulan puasa 2009, di hadapan rumahku ada Pasar Ramadhan, dan hujan selalu turun lebat di waktu petang, di balik tingkap, tingkat 2 rumahku, aku kasihan melihat penjaja lari bertempiaran kerana hujan, mengajarku erti syukur dengan kurniaan tuhan yg menyenangkan hidup ini!

Dalam tenang turunnya gerimis
Rupanya ada taufan yg mengguris
Dan sebenarnya kau ingin menangis
Cuma berpura pura menjadi bengis

Kesimpulan: Saya suka hujan. hehe

Kawan, ini TERIMA KASIH dariku...

Sudah lamanya jauh terpisah, alam pengajian sudah lama jadi kisah yg telah sudah, setiap dari kita sudah punya cerita yang lebih indah, menempuh alam yg beselang seli riang dan gundah....................................................................................

Ini utk teman-teman pengajianku yg tahu kewujudan blog ini (debat dan coursemate)

Dan

buat teman-teman pendebat, junior debat, coursemate, teman dari serata 4 buah sekolah menengah yg pernah aku attend, dan tentunya teman-teman baru di KMJ.

Terima kasih,

Rindu korang, reunion? =====> tunggu gaji.huhuhu

As i walk along a long path and alone
I begun to wonder and wander
Am i all alone or is it just a longing
Cause when i open my eyes i saw people
What ignites the solitary illusion?
When im all surrounded by solid figures
And isolation is the only thing im lacking
Then i close my eyes and i realize
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you

Friends, i miss you

-Nadiah-

Tentang langit KMJ ini...

Td perlawanan bola jaring, sudah tentu aku tidak main, cuma duduk tepi padang, sungguh kurang berminat dengan aktivit sukan, n aku mahu tulis ini, tentang langit yg aku renung.

Sky symbolizing endless possibilities,
the width nor the height lack distinct border,
the birds flying as if the only fear is immobile,
the smooth flow they sketch,
the invisible colour they trace,
As the flock of birds flying together,
they signify solidarity,
conveying a non-verbal unity message,
As infinite as the sky area might seem,
None cant be achieved,
If you put your heart in it.


-Nadiah-

When the world you live in no longer defines you...

...

Either or neither nor

I'm stealing 3 minutes to post this, writing right from my desk in Maths unit KMJ.

When i woke this morning, my joint and muscle aching all over, fatigue wash over me, my throat felt blistered, and waking up is an effort.

When i stretch, my waist felt like it wanna break

So today's a bad day, perhaps because its monday, or perhaps because im not feelin well.

Either or neither

Me-active

Due to some calling to practise healthy lifestyle, i respond to the request to play netball/volleyball, representing the department in the upcoming inter-department sport championship ( err, it is more i was MADE to participate actually..haha)

With all due respect, i am all but sporty, anything but athletic, the typical 'tangan bangku' nerdy bookworm who the only exercise was the intellect, none physically!

Bab-bab fizikal mengejar bola ni aku mmg hancur sangat sangat!

Selepas main bola jaring 10 minit sahaja, aku sudah kepucatan dan kelelahan terduduk di tepi padang, diletakkan di posisi centre, aku rasa bagai nak pitam ( ikhlas) mengejar bola.

i think i wanna volunteer for the reserve position. And honestly, i think i'd never play again

Not playing when i am 24, that means not forever. Perhaps i'll opt for 100 times a day sits-up, jog weekly, or perhaps i'll buy a treadmill

But netball? NO NO, not again ( surrender)

hahahahahahahahahahahaha

The greatest love of all.

Those who love, and loved will claim they posses the greatest love of all. None will admit flaw in the seemingly-perfect reciprocal affection they share with their love ones. The life they lead is the best ever imagined, their day is heaven, every passing second is gift, and aging is an inert process.

Everything associated with love is great, but which is the greatest, of all?

Mother's love can see pass all flaws. It care neither how you look nor how rich are you. it does not evaluate but protects, instead of asking, it is giving.

Kasih agung itu kasih dari ibu, dan yg paling agung pastilah kasih Tuhan.

p/s: mood skrang sgt homesick, teringat rumah dan teringat ma.

Budak bijak

Since i was a small kid, i love a story which narrates the children prodigy capability to solve crimes or complex investigation murder cases exceed the adult. Better, if the story features the kid hoodwink the adult to top the race to the solution of the cases.

That means, the story of 'budak bijak' always kinda intrigue me more than the love story frequent appear on the TV. i cherish the fact and belief that kid grows in stages. A kid who skip some stages and behaving ( also thinking) like an adult at the age when he/she is suppose to be behaving like a kid is, in a way, extraordinary. I was in complete awe to watch those kind of movie.

Biar lah, tidak mengapa, tuhan ada~

Nobody wants to cry, everyone wants to be happy, rich and pretty, loved and ass-kissed.

Your neverending quest to achieve everything that seems good will do you no good. The only answer for happiness is to be content with whatever you have, satisfied over your own possesion, prune the devil murmur to want more after been given much. In other word, be grateful, bersyukurlah~

As the saying goes, 'grass on the other side always look greener', everything is not as it seems, the ill-intention you have towards people will backfire at one point of your life without you truly realizing it. Everything you encounter in your very short life span is the result of your doing. Pembalasan~

So, when you get backstabbed, slandered, cheated, even hated, dont even think of getting a revenge, katakan lah:

Biar lah, tidak mengapa, tuhan ada~

I finally found peace

i think i had found what im looking for all my life. Since i was in university, i was always having the unnecessary worry regarding my future working life. I always kinda imagining i'll be posted somewhere rural to the extent of lacking the electricity supply, network coverage and interrupted water supply.

When qualms flooding your mind, the sure way to clear the space is to pray, asking for guidance and blessing from the Al-Mighty ALLAH SWT, the PROVIDER of all need.

So, i prayed, i prayed very hard when the time came for me to be posted, i hope i'll find serenity and lasting peace in that place. Then,

'twing twing twing' ( sound effect ini seperti bunyi magic dlm film kartun, gunakan imaginasi anda!)

Wishes granted

Here i am, Tangkak

Well, i cant say i truly love this place, but compare to the place i'd been before (eg: praktikum di SB), its lotsa lotsa lotsa lotsa BETTER

But i know, wherever i am, as long as i keep my heart close to the CREATOR ALLAH SWT, i'll be fine always...

Thisisworldbaby!

The generosity to forgive is rare to be displayed in our modern society. The simplest and slightest mistakes often lead to greater row and prolonged disputes. In a conflict, even when a party offers an apology, the similar kindness sometimes wont be reciprocate by the other proxy.

This is world! even the urge to be sincere can be misinterpreted as a fake act to vie for respect!

Kenapa?

i

dahulu, di awal menengah rendah

guru Matematik ajar

punca kuasa dua 4 jawabnya 2

punca kuasa dua -4 pula

tiada jawapan
kita terima setakat itu
dan bersetuju

*melainkan kamu remaja genius luarbiasa*

kemudian, menginjak setahun

tingkatan 2

diajar pula

punca kuasa 4 jawabnya 2 dan -2

punca kuasa -4

masih tinggal misteri

ii

Masuk matrikulasi

barulah tahu

imaginary, complex number, conjugates pairs

Punca kuasa dua -4 sudah ketemu

jawabannya

Diperkenalkan dengan imaginary plot, graph, line

Namun terhenti di situ

iii

Masuk universiti

Ambil complex vars
banyak lagi misteri yang terungkap

iv

Hidup juga begitu

kadangkala kita digelapkan

dengan jawapan

dibiarkan dengan persoalan

kerna belum tiba masanya

untuk kita mengetahui

v

Maka kunci mutlak

adalah kesabaran

bila tiba masanya

kau akan mengerti jua

sementara itu

hapuslah derita

dan bersabar

sahaja

p/s: mahu berhenti bertanya kenapa